nanti bila aku pergi

ahha ,hebad kan title ?saja bagi gempak .umumu~
well..literally ,memey aku takde pomm =.=
pegi plkn nyah oiii..

so ,maknanya ,i chose untuk tolak UTP la kan .well byk jugak la pendapat aku terima ,
"chemical engineering one of the best in the world tau tak?"
"pluang nk dpt tu 25% je taw x?tak bersyukor la hang"
"susah woh nk dpt chemical engineering.try lah "
"tak mcm tolak rezeki k hg? "
namun..aku tetep tabahkan hati.wee..takpelah ..ni,decision aku.bak kata sorang ni ,
"walau ape pon kita pilih,ade hikmah disebalik semua tu <3"
okeh .so..memandangkan aku dah pilih PLKN,segala persediaan ,aku buat la balik.kutip2 barang kat watson .. listing isi luggage ..walaupon actually aku tak start packing ape lagi sedangkan hari ni 31/12/12 dan aku lapor 3/1/13 .huhu .sempat kod..campak je la mne yang patot . HAHA
so ..tadi bejalan pegi watson,beli brg perlindungan .haha.byk la,perlindungan nyamok ,ubat ubatan ,perlindungan MATAHARI ,dan segala bagai yg aku rasa aku takkan pakai sgt pon nnti =.=

haha nampak tak semua sunblock semua tu .walaupun mereka kata "sia2 la cheqq oi..3bulan hari2 nak pakai ka?? " takpe..it worth tries.HAHA.aku takmo jadi ni ..

wuuuu TT___TT
walaupun nmpk over,tapi heyy ,kod la.haha.tak doa..tak doa ..
so aku beli la sunblock ,walopon SPF 50 je =.= takpelah.jadi la.dr takde langsung .tambahan pula ia waterproof kan ,so takde la cayor dgn peluh aku nnti .haha.
okeh aku nervous kod nak pegi..sumpah nervous.kakak aku yg berpengalaman tuh ckp ..
"kat sane ad mcm2 org .kena pndai pilih kawan.salah pilih kawan,habis la hang"
abg sedare aku lak ckp ,
"ape2 pon,jgn percaya lelaki sane.lpsn SPM ni bukan leh cye sgt.kate single ,tgok ade awek."
kwn aku lak ckp,
"jgn berani2 sembang/lepak berdua dgn mana2 lelaki walaupun hg knai(zulhelmi tamizi,boypreng alia yg satu2nya aku kenal =.= ) sbb nnti kena denda kawin dpn dewan makan waktu org lain tgh makan.
the heckk ...sumpah seram .bygkan ,walaupun tu kwn kau yg kamceng2 ,kena kawin .wuuu TT maruah beb!
kalau comel takpe lah .kalau lelaki tu buruk ? haish sembang mcm aku sgt adorable lagi sexaay lagi menawan gitu .haha.tpi sumpah takmo ! takut wuu

so..koklusi ,jaga lah diri .hewhew .insyaAllah aku akan .ye awek awek sekalian ??
kepada orang-orang yang prihatin yg suruh aku jaga diri tu..hmm boleh la kod aku jaga diri.lagipun aku rasa ,dlm ramai tuh ,takkan aku sorang je yg neves2 gittuw kan?msti ramai lagi .HAHA
aku ..physically and mentally ,,TAK READY langsung ! tunggu la bila aku akan ready.
aku kan just go with the flow wo wo~
aku harap ,
-semua kat sini jaga diri
-jgn lupa aku langsung(lupa,siap hampa)
-tak brape nk burn
-aku boleh bahgia
-dpt ramai kwn yg boleh cope dgn aku
-semua syg aku mcm mana aku syg mereka
-ada org tunggu aku balik :') *takde,aku taw .haha.takpe takpe
-aku sentiasa comel walau apa jua keadaan cewah!
-aku nak balik dan pegi amek slip SPM yg tertulis 9A+ (amin amin amin ><! )

btw ..before aku pergi plkn KEM SINAR SURIA yg bersinar sinar tuh ,aku buat jejak kasih dah dgn sorang ni,dak convent jugak (memey jdoh aku dgn convent jugak kod =.= ) jmpe melalui ramizah raihan.haha.
so..oke la,ade kawan dah .mcm tu la jugak aku jumpe zaty dan rami dulu kat kupsis.melalui nurlina syafiqah ,cousin tersayang sayang aku tuh <3 hewhew.

ni before aku

sila ignore my fake smile tu.lawak kan =.=?

so lepas ni aku akan upload my after 3months pergi "summercamp" bak kata kakak kesayangn aku tuh =.=

takpe lah .that unvaluable experience that matters(org ckp laa.haha)

sekarang.terimalah lagu dari aku sebab aku rasa ni entry last before aku masuk plkn .hee.tu yang sgt panjang.nnti aku akan update my unvaluable experience yg aku cari tuh .hewhew.
aku akan tabahkan diri ,untuk dia ayy~untuk dia ayy~ :')

bila aku sudah tiada

simpan semua laguku

(memandangkan aku ada lagu kan.HAHA)

farewell of summer romance :')

We're dying for the night
the stars are waiting for us, 
tingling in our eyes, 
to stroke the heat of the action way away beyond expectations
Appealing, charming, you are, please stay with me,
and let's do this together everlastingly
Don't kill the frame of mind, 
don't start going back, 
I'm yours and you're mine, 
we belong to each other forever,
Darling don't leave now, 
this is my summer romance, for us, when sun shines bright in the morning, 
let's wait for that

Are you with me?
We went through the hardest and we made it, yeah we've made it, so far

Goodbye, goodbye, don't make it thrice
Goodbye, goodbye, it's okay, it's alright, fine well have it your way,
What do I do, when my summer is wholly unfilled and empty?
I want to go home, be right beside you, kiss your lips, and embrace those cute pink braces

To save me, from where I came from, it was dark and still, I'm so scared
Correct me when I'm wrong, you've been my true inspiration, I've changed for good, and it's all because of you

Infection of the love disease is more than I could ever imagine, the city smoke his pride and the beach water it clearly
Are you with me?
We went through the hardest and we made it, yeah we've made it, so far

If you want me, wait till the time comes,
I'm saving myself for you; love is more than just sex
Well I do want you, and I'll wait till the time comes
I'm saving myself for you
I heart you so much

ke-biul-an

wahai kawan2 aku..sesungguhnya aku sgt lah buntu.tulun aku :(
mcm ni :
aku tgh piker nk pegy utp/plkn .sume ade pros n contrast masing2 ..tu yg buat aq pening .mula2 mmg aq dtermine nk tolak utp ,aim for medic mcm Ramizah(kwn aku) .tp mcm mne kalau medic just isnt for me and ngneering nih mmg tok aku ?sbbkan aq xminat ,aq rse nk tolak n jz tawakal menhitamkan dri kat plkn.tp ttbe ritu aq g knuri.sorang sdare aq ni,bhgian pnddikan tggi .dy ckp ,"tolak utp mmg rugi.kalau nk buat mdic ,kne jiwa kental.tp klo minat ,btol2 nk,xpe lah.tp syez,utp,tolak,rugi.bagus tuh ! "so aq pon mule pning2 dh =.=kakak aq lak,"kwn2 org yg amek chem ngneerig tu ,kelam kabut j stdy.bnd tuh susa"mak aq lak "kwn mama,cik chua,dy ckp ,utp's chem ngneering one of the best in the world.pensyrah dy semua outsiders.plus,field kje dy luas.xsmestinya jd ngneer j nnt.klo nk ,buat je.psl duit xyah kisah.dpends on u only.medic tu,r u really sure boleh bwk?anak cik mid uh ,dh hbes blaja,tgh kje boleh ckp "xnak jdi doktor".tp tu la.ikod hg.nk ke tak."so aq pon buntu.Buruk utp- habis trus cuti setaon.no more njoy2.pegy plkn,ade la burn 3blan je..tp hitam nk mampos la.tp ,the experience tuh.valuable gila.pegy plkn lak- rugi utp .aq dgr BEST IN THE WORLD yg lemah uh.huhu.rse rugi.pegy plkn,hitam =.= bak kata rara-mcm mne kalau ade yg better mnunggu lps rsult spm klua?aq dpt fly ? taleh teburu decide our future ..sumpah aq pening..pasal minat ..aku tak kisah nk belajar je ..tapi ,tak seronok la kan belajar tanpa minat?nnt keje seumur hidup pon tanpa minat .aku buntu!!! ><

 ATAU

kiss me- six pence none the richer.

28/11/12 :)
#a date to remember

Mannequin-Katy Perry

EDUcamp UTP 2012

so..on 11december2012,i went to the educamp .finally ! i made my decision to just go on with the plan ..
and at the moment i reached there ..i was like..omaigoddd !!!damned huge .hoho *sgt excited tgok librarynya ><

7am ,dah tercangak kat situ .bayangkan ???5.50am mama already woke me up .i was like..ehh early lagi kod...=.= tapi ,its her.mum .obviously ,want the best for her children kan .ahh nvm~
then ,7am .sesampainya terus cari toilet dia .(saket prot msok angin xbreakfast =.= )
dan mcm org perak/jakun ,aq cari ."oih mana paip??!! "
haha rupanya dia automatic punye la puunn..maklumla..nama pon universiti TEKNOLOGI .huhu.aq pon katak bwh temprung.kruuk kruu krukk ~
takpe..so ..q pegy daftar ,(beratur kat line palig depan kaww~ )
dan padan muka dapat grup A yakni grup paling awei la ni .
pastu ..aku dok la sorang2 dlm auditorium uhh ...mcm cengkerik je =.=
kwn2 aku semua lambat .haish deme nih.jenuh aku text sana sini ,cari mereka ..
kat blkg ade budak MTD (kot?) dok usha2...maybe kesian aq dok sorang2.huhu.
FINALLY~~~ Teh Azilah showed up =.= pastu Ramizah ..pastu Zaty~
yea,dh complete ^^
budak lain ade gak ,tp dyorang dok tempat len .plus,tenpat2 yg aq dh "tender" semua dh org amek =.= tak berbelas hati btol .
so...dh habis ceramah2 bagai tuh ,
kitorang nek bus..pegy tempat interview,memandangkan aku ni grup A ,awal la..dh kne msok bilik mnunggu.
The thing is..
masok2 teros - "okay guys u are given 10minutes to jot down all your points,u may start now"
aku yg blur nih pon dgn blur nya tanya la a chinese guy ..dy yg nmpk mcm nk tolong sikit =.=
so dia explen2..aku paham ,aq pon buat la..tah amende aku tulis .
masa tamat ,and ktorang pegi bilik mnunggu , (untuk individual pnye)
we were given a piece of paper ,it was different with our group members but may be the same with the members of OTHER group .
it was listed ,a problem ,and the solution so ,our task is ,to state whter we agree or not with the solution .and obviously,sila la elaborate your points kan ,nk kukuhkan statement~
OUR problem is "crime in youth "
so mcm aku..aku dpt pasal..err tak igt .tapi around 7 to 6 solutions gak la dy dh bg.
rasanya...50-50 aku agree n disagree
arahan pon "u must agree on most solutions"
ala ala debate la tu kan..tapi kalau ikut hati semua aku nk pangkah .haha
so..masok bilik interview tuh,i already made a mistake =.=
SEINGAT aku,hari tu mock interview kat skolah,kitorang msok tros letak file ats meja .
and guess wht?aku letak tanpa dia mintak .aq sdr aq salah dan saat itu..aku mula cuak =.=
bila cuak..terang2 la aku sembang beterabor dan erkk aku lpe pesanan mak aku ..aku TERcakap laju ..huhu
maaf mama ><
the worst part it ,
-i was trying to list out some examples..and it just slipped out of my mouth the word "blablabla~"
woaa demmit ><!!! TER okay..TER !
at the freaking annoying bloody moment ..aku dh "wuah .habes la -_- "
tapi..mengenangkan yang "okay ,ni bukan aku target .aku jz nk the experience..." aku chill dan relax la balek .haha.pastu group interview session ..yang ni....

sebagai a GROUP ,korang kena pandai2 kawtim ngn member la kan ,turn bercakap..bergilir2 ..so takdela nnt org yg lemah disisihkan ryte dear? so..ni lbeyh kepada team work and bertolak ansur .to give and to take :)
group aku ,awal sgt ,so tak sempat nk kawtim ..so mucullah si polan yg bercakap terlebih..yg tak bercakap langsung ..secara positive-thinking aku ..well it's better ade yg bercakap lenih sbb nnt takde la timbul suasana "kruuk kruuk kruuk " kan?=.=
haha tapi ,secara bertimang rasa dan human-thinking aku ..kesian kat mereka yg pendiam and low self confidence.c'mon ,kata sama2 manusia..tolong menolong amalan mulia <3
takpe lah .maybe they want this oppurtunity terlalu amat ,once in a life time kot !spe takmaw ??
everybody that day,came on their own personal reasons ,which nobody knew :)
pastu end with group session ,kami pun kelua lah dgn muka yg sgt bahagia .seriously ,SANGAT BAHAGIA! haha .tros berjalan ke stu event yg sgt sgt sgt sgt aku tggu ...
LUNCH bebehhh!!! tapi,agak kecewa sbb ayam kat situ yg tinggal,xbest je sbb kami session kedua makan.session pertama,budak petang .takpela,rezeki
however ,it was a great experienced though .sempat berkawan an sorang je =.=
tu pon ..tah?kawan ke?=..= one of my group members .budak MRSM Langkawi .
pastu ,disebabkan schedule dh brubah..ktorang yg dh klua nih ,boleh tros balek umah .zzzzzz tido dgn aman ^^
btw .ni masjid dia .lawo kan? <3

END of my experience in UTP tronoh perak :) *30minutes away mak aku drive dr umah =.=

PENANG :)

Tadi ,pagi2 buta dh siap ,pegi Penang ,kampung sebelah Abah punye kenduri ..
However ,satu pun sedare mara tidak ku knal =.=
ni lah jadi kalau sejak kecik tanak bejalan.aishh..
Jadi saya sgt yakin,kat FB/Twitter uh ,msti ade punye sedara mara yg tak kenal .HAHA
so ,ini lah tujuan kenduri~
merapatkan hubungan silaturrahim yg dh lama terputus ..kite erat2kan.. kan? <3
Tapi,mostly ,the pictures taken,xbyk pasei knuri pon .haha .maaflah,im not into "human"
Tgkap gmba pokok ,lagi best .<3
Btw,kepada cousins , "Yea..kita xkenal ..nama pun xigt ,nk buat cane,takdir pisahkan kita :') tapi ,silaturrahim jgn la putus setakat tu je .tak seronok pon kan?so..okeh,salam perkenalan *telambat ke?ohh semestinya tidak.haha " Tapi..based on observation that can be observed from the observation tool (pictures) ,aq lepak an kanak2 je banyak .=.= yeaa..kerana ,org2 besar semua bz .
----zzzzz~----

dan...pastu..pegy pulak carik ketam *wat tgn jari kepit2 mcm ketam^^
ohhho ketammm~ ILYSFDM!!! ><
tp er..tade gamba ketam kat sini kerana perangai dan tatacara yg telah diendahkan ketika makan ketam.HAHA. *dua2 tgn ats meja woo~

effect movie

okeh .nothing to write tapi ..rasa nk tulis tu sgt meninggi.
Dear all ,
How do u feel ,when u really really really care bout the person ,HOWEVER ..that only one beloved person ,cakap "hey ,u nvr care bout me before so stop pretending like u do care ..!" but the real thing is ...he's the one who has changed and u has changed urself for being tired with him .tired ,exhausted and every second,felt like..DEMMIT! .haha :))
all those sacrifice made by u ..seems kinda blurred or worst ,he din see them at all .unintended of bringing up things u have done for him but heyyy!! do show ur appreciation sikit okey?? i'm a human who has feeling jugak !
i am so pissed off now.omaigod omaigod .

but dear all .take things in the positive side :)
bak kata org ..optimist .yea optimist :)
so ...wide open ur eyes ,look around and see how much ppl ,who still loves you .
#loveSAPPHIREs <3
p/s: mengapakah aku rasa post aku takde kena mengena ?? lantaklah .haha.
nama pun babble~